Alice In The Wonderland Of Mistake

This week isn't starting with 'good'
But it's bad week for me

Two days a week
Twice a day
I cried... :'(
As what I knew
That's really a sad place
These two days only I believe there really a sad place for me

Why are they like to bully me???
Am I too kind for u all to bully????
I do things wrong...............
Accept my false!!!

Why you all must lend a hand in here
This doesn't related to u all..............

I turned angry to sadness
To release sadness and stress
I crying for myself

Don't know what should i do?
Should I leave there immediately?

Alice In The Wonderland Of Change

Lots of thing changing now...
People.......
Technology.......

After two months
I have success to get my driving license
There are nothing special actually....
Getting license without owning a car
It's just like drink tea without tea

Wish to own a car now
Work hard.....!!!!!


Working.... recently i was thinking
why i'm still remain at this company???
why the other EX colleagues got the 'brave' to leave there in a short period
But i'm still there after half a year
I still can do it......?!
Trying my best to do it well.... No matter how 'tired' i am
I'm in the account department but it seem like a filling department for me!!!
Filling works always more than Account work waiting for me to do
How unfair they are!!!!!
I only knew that I learnt filling are more than i learnt account

Wanna some changes after this year!!!!!!

Alice In the Wonderland of Alive

There had been long time i was disappeared from here
My friend said that my blog was dead >,<

Quit lots of things happened these few weeks
Too many till i dunno how to write it all down here

A friend of mine acted weird
feel like she doesn't the one i known from passed
So sad that she can jz scolded my cousin without reasoning
No apologize after she scold ppl
We jz received a excuse from her sister and brother in law
with she will in bad mood once she feeling not well

Can we accept this reason???
NO~~! I can't accept this reason!!!
She shouldn't act like that as she feeling not well

In additional
her brother in law seem like a stranger for us
suddenly called us frequently and will chat with us for a long hourss
we(me and anther friend of mine) didn't know him well or willing to be friend with him
really a weird person for us >.<

After few days i denied his call
and Hshin had a small talked to him
never receive any call from him till now^^
feel more comfortable

Sunday(28/08/2011) 
went Sunway Pyramid and Empire Subang with friends
had fun during the journey to Subang cos we went there by KTM
even only for few hours
First time went stepped in Empire
feel fresh for there~~~~

Tueday(30/08/2011)
Me and my cousin woke up early in the morning
cos my dad promised us gonna bring us go our favorite beach
but wait and wait
finally we get to go reached there already evening
from morning till evening only get to see seaside
really made me feel sad and disappointed with this holiday's plan
even i only can feel the sea for awhile it's really enough for me

My holidays end today (1st of Sept)
Being bored at home for two dayssss dy
feel more tired when time remind me back to work tomorrow
hopefully all will go smooth
don't like the previous working day before holidays
really feel stress that day
made me cried out once i reached home
can't describe the feeling in my mind and heart out....
Anyway this is what i hv chosen i should take responsible to do it as well as i can
Can't blame on others do my best and brave to face it all
Gambateh!!!!!!!!!!!!

爱丽丝梦游幻境之变形金刚（三）

早已与朋友有约了
约了看早场的电影

一整夜没睡
眼睛带红丝
还稍微肿肿地
赶到电影院前和朋友会合
在等着另一位朋友时聊着聊着
才发现原来我们要看的电影不是我原本以为要看的那一部
其实Jesslyn在星期五时有再一次告知我
我们要看的电影是Transformer 3

最近都老是忘了一些看似不重要
又很重要的小事
应该是自从开始上班后的一个月吧
常常忘了一些小事情
最严重的是忘了明明被遗忘在车上的手机
等到我发现时已是凌晨了
措手不及不知要到哪儿找
因为根本无头绪... ...

回到变形金刚吧
真的蛮好看的哟
虽然只看第一部
第二部为何会没看到
忘了....
跳到第三部也很好看啦

爱丽丝梦游幻境之忧虑

有些事
让我觉得...很无助
不知如何能帮得上忙

穷担心也没用
事情终究解决不了

想帮忙却帮不到
心情真的糟透了...

为何？？？？？？

就算求神，求人也不能帮上的忙吧
因为有些事是需要用自己的智慧
才能解决的...

因为那是现实生活上不可缺的东西
是必需品！
所以以现今的我真的帮不上忙...

心里一直问自己
该怎么办？
怎么办？

要与他们一起分担
却遭到挨骂...

不理解的人
却认为是我的错
忽视所有的问题吗？
能忽视就好了... ...
能看透就更好了... ...

曾试过不理的事
却被认为我在逃避
不是不理
而是我帮不上忙
只能在那穷担心
就像现在... ...

能与我分享心情的人在哪？？
朋友？手足？

虽说
‘朋友是成功道路上的一位良师，热情地将你引向阳光的地带；
朋友是失败苦闷中的一盏明灯，默默地为你驱赶心灵的阴霾。’


我还没找到吗？
不是每个人愿意倾听诉说的...


普通的朋友VS真正的朋友

• 一个普通的朋友从未看过你哭泣；一个真正的朋友的双肩曾经让你的泪水湿浸
• 一个普通的朋友知道你父母的姓氏；一个真正的朋友有他们的电话在通讯簿上
• 一个普通的朋友会带瓶葡萄酒参加你的派对；一个真正的朋友会早点来帮你准备，为了帮你打扫而晚点走
• 一个普通的朋友讨厌你在他睡了后打来；一个真正的朋友会问为什么现在才打来
• 一个普通的朋友找你谈论你的困扰，一个真正的朋友找你解决你的困扰
• 一个普通的朋友对你的罗曼史感到好奇，一个真正的朋友可以威胁你说出来
• 一个普通的朋友在拜访时，像一个客人一样；一个真正的朋友会打开冰箱自己拿东西
• 一个普通的朋友在吵架后就认为友谊已经结束；一个真正的朋友明白当你们还没打过架就不叫真正的友谊
• 一个普通的朋友在你寻求帮助的时候首先问东问西。一个真正的朋友会默默的帮助你然后再询问
• 一个普通的朋友期望你永远在他身边陪他；一个真正的朋友期望他永远陪在你身旁！

爱丽丝梦游幻境之难眠の夜

又有不愉快的事情了
不知从何说起...

在悲伤中发了一封信息给Jesslyn
没想到她很快的拨电回我
关心我
真的感动到我了...
非常谢谢呢～^^
结果被约到快餐店谈心事咯

我本人认为
每个人有不同的思想
也许他们来自不同的生活环境
所以
有些事是该说给懂的人听

有些人听不懂我们说的有些事
就会认为那些都无所谓
而有些人呢
会给予关怀

不过就算
全世界不懂无所谓
但至少要有一位知心朋友了(liao) 就够了



果然被说中了
真的睡不着
悲喜参半

今天Jesslyn 让我觉得一首歌很适合我们
Shining Friends - 'Sorrow is Gonna Say Goodbye~~~'


^Happy Ending^

爱丽丝梦游幻境之笑

进入阳历七月了
2011已过半

最近都在想自己在上半年完成了什么有意义的事情

近几个星期周围发生了不少大大小小的事

所有事情会在我心中产生喜怒哀乐

再加上烦恼... 事情就会使我感到自己很无助

俗话说‘笑一笑，没烦恼’

但对我却派不上用场

就算到电影院看一部喜剧

哈哈大笑一场后的我依然会像一个气球

输入气又泄了

回到烦恼的空间里

想笑都笑不出来了

部落格是让我们写些自己心里想说出来又不知怎么说的话

有些人却还是在部落格隐藏自己

有时候有些事

想找某些人帮忙

却不见得他们会真正的帮

真是有福同享，有难各自飞

Alice In The Wonderland of Varicella

Varicella 是水痘的真正名称

一个星期前
凌晨就发烧了
早上起床梳洗时发现已张了几颗水痘

还奔到楼下问妈妈那是否真的是水痘
又问怎么办还要去上班吗？

还能去吗？

我自己都慌了

不知道怎么办......

不知道该高兴（我期盼已久终于出了）

还是伤心（不能去上班又没工钱因为才第二个月试用期内）

结果我还是去上班了

等到还没休息前告诉了同事

对她说我出水痘

她第一句就告诉我

‘那你就要去通知老板娘哦’

通知老板娘请病假吧

放工后再等爸载我去诊疗所

进到里面医生问‘生病？’

我告诉他‘出水痘...’

医生不相信的问‘哪里？’

show 给他看

他才说看到了看到了

最后给了十天的假期

领了药回家

第二天至第四天的凌晨都很难入眠

因为白天家里有小孩

所以妈妈不要我在楼下

已经待在自己的房间里五天的我

竟然不会真得觉得很闷

只有一点而已...

有天躺着躺着

眼泪就流了出来

因为想到休息没工钱

有些工作没做完

还在试用期没过三个月；

又麻烦妈妈忙着煮个我吃

还要煲些凉水给我喝；

为何现在才出？

为何是现在而不是迟些等我真的工作做累了再出;

也害怕脸上的会留疤......

有时会想念才刚去台湾已一个星期多的表妹

可能她之前在我家待了几个星期的关系吧

熟悉她的存在了

突然会觉得不习惯没有她的存在

她的声音

不知怎么了

有时会很喘....

水痘已经快要好了

不再蔓延生长

从头顶到脚底

都有了.....

尤其是身体的部分都很多

有时会很痒

但不能扒....

还有一次被家里的小妹妹发现我在楼上

她自己爬上楼来进了我的房间

来问我：‘姐姐，你被蚊子叮吗？’

我当时听了愣了不知要笑还是要哭...

Alice In The Wonderland of Swimming Pool

It has been long time ago I went swimming pool

I went there for learnt swimming

and yet I still failure

Same as today...
Went with my dearest sis and her boyfriend also my cousin
Starting till the end I was learning how to float in the water >.<
Terrible student! Can't even know how to relax....

Really like to play water in swimming pool even i dont know how to swim

But the washroom there still in progress

Wanna go again jz because of the reason
Will go later the progress end....

Alice In The Wonderland of Patience

经常在怀疑自己的容忍度
我的容忍度有多高？

因为交通不便
我要忍受她的脾气
那我上下班才能到顺利抵达目的地

即使她是至情

因为工作饭碗

我要忍受她的性格与脾气
那我才能在那间公司待久

很多事情

都是要忍

才能过去

有哪些是

无须忍耐

都会过去

其实

无须忍耐

只需放下

所有不愉快的事

都会变得无所谓

常常迷惑了

分不清忍耐与放下

放下=看开？？

不知道......

不知道我为什么

只有选择忍耐的余地？

心中的幸运之神

并不是一直跟随着我的...

即使知道要放下

但我还是只能容忍

容忍让我觉得疲惫，压力，悲伤...

无论我在如何努力

也解决不了现今的问题

问题一直存在着

而我一直在逃避着

原以为逃避问题就不再是问题了...

那些我难以自己解决的问题又再次浮现

只想选择用哭泣来倾泄

Alice In The Wonderland of Holiday

Unexpected holiday
Wesak day isn't consider public holiday in my company list
Because of my Ma'am feeling tired
only officer get a day to break down

Wesak Eve
Gonna watch movie with second aunt's family and my cousin, Yoko
........'Priest'.......

But...... Tomorrow time table is blank
Who can accompany me to fill up my holiday time table????


Seem like Gonna Bored at home tomorrow....

Alice In The Wonderland of Moody Sunday

Thought it will be a happy Sunday...
Planning to go GM Klang buy present with Ivy and Cindy
but me myself and my cousin, Yoko wanna prepare it by ourselves

so we have bought it on Saturday...

Yesterday i already ask Yoko to sent a message to Cindy
and said that we don't need they fetch us go and we would prepare the present ourselves

Sunday morning received a call from Cindy
that they are on the way coming to fetch me... i was shock!
and ask Cindy 'don't u received a message from Yoko that we wouldn't going?'
hope she wouldn't be so angry with me

Sorry.....

Actually me and Yoko following my parent to go Cheras
But till now my parent not yet coming back....
hmmm.... wasting my time for doing nothing here
That's why i come here and update my status

After spread it all out
I really feel much better...
Jz hope that Cindy wouldn't be angry with me


Happy & Smile everyday :)

Alice In The Wonderland of In the Progress

It's had been more than one month i didn't update my blog...

BLOG：'Welcome back!'

Alice: 'I miss U~'

Started my life in social
Be an OL

Work at Account Department
Starting 'caution' this word followed me everyday even till today and future
This position can't be play play hv to be careful while doing everything
Sometimes I feel really pressure from my superior
She is hot temper and impatiently may because of many works waiting for her to finish

Learning and Studying are two different thing

Emotions appear after i enter social
Sadness.... mostly i meet it while working

There're many things waiting for me to be friend with them
By the time to remember their name
I hv to clear my mind
Now i found that i could easily forget some thing which is not important but it's seem important

example i do forgot when my friend at Johor would back from Uni even i hv asked her b4 few days

my brain storage now hv to clear and full with account
so that i can work smoothly without blame from my superior
not scare but dislike ppl get angry with my foolish mind

hopefully i could work smoothly

no matter how hard is it I must pass it！

Alice In The Wonderland of Begining of Journey

Think and think.... Thinking......
Always thinking
Non-stop thinking......

Thinking the next step that i should move on......
The course i studying going till the ends
Exams coming
Today! even jz internal exam
midnight i can't fall sleep
nervous? no.... worried? no....
dunno why.....?

these are last exams for diploma...
have to take them more serious......


Next month still have UBS & Mc classes to attend
But i choose to go with part-time time table
cos not every weekday have class
it would wasting my time when those days doesn't hv class

Searching for Job
Was my plan for next month
Seen it's coming soon

Through Jesslyn I have interviewed two companies
and i got the job which is Jesslyn' s current working company
but... i have some problem with join in the company
1st transportation
2nd distance
3nd position

working position doesn't the one i want......
how? should i reject? but i ady confirm with them...............

anyway try my best to apply the better one
these few days i have been searching.......
tomorrow going to interview the other company
near my house.... again having a bit transport problem
hmmm.... it's fine I can walk there but
Mum said isn't safe by bus No.11
if cycle there my bicycle's wheels was 'sick' :(

Sad...............
I have cried for the transportation problem a long whole night
felt like no one can help
loneliness....

really no one can help up
all I have do it by myself
solve them by myself

After 7 hours
I have to seat for my internal exam
wish myself good luck
curious how's those questions look like
hopefully i knew them...... can be friend with them in exam hall but not enemy :)

Alice In The Wonderland of MBO

There was Last Friday 25022011
After collected cert.
Went MBO for movie with Jesslyn and HuehShin
That was my 1st time watched movie at MBO Klang
But not my 1st time in MBO :P

1st movie i watched at MBO was 'I am Number 4'
It was a nice movie too
John Smith (Alex Pettyfer) is amongst the 9 kids who survived from planet Lorien and has adopted Earth as his planet, along with his guardian Henri (Timothy Olyphant). The film begins fast but doesn’t carry through as far as pace is concerned.




The real enemies here are the Mogs, or Mogadorians, mutated versions of human form but much taller. Their job is to hunt the Loriens who survived, and kill them.


2nd guardian to I Am Number Four (first green lizard, then dog, then ultra big mutated dog form) forms an interesting character
Tht's the part i like too when the dog transfer became big mutated dog ^^

After New Year Chap Goh Mei

Morning in class
There were two of my classmates asked lecturer for result
Lecturer was surprised that we haven't get our result for the earlier three subjects that we took last year

Before rest time
Lecturer suddenly announced that we will get our result afterward

Oh! Oh God! Oh NO!
OH! for 1st result we get
OH GOD! for 2nd result we get
OH NO! for 3rd result we get
*lecturer said
and he will call up ambulance prepare for us who faint after get result
hahahaha.... 'laughing in heart'

****************************************************************
ggiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiggiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiig...... shakinggg.......
'gan jiong' about my result(nervous while waiting to get my result)

enter Headmaster room... informed my internal exam result
i didn't paid more attention on that
jz curious about my external result that is more important
short speech from headmaster #@$&@$#%$
but for me it's too long
finally get three slide of paper (real cert. not yet done)
I got 2 subjects passed with distinction hehehe.... happy
but the other one failed ... in expected so i didn't feel SO sad
a bit sadness in my heart
NIU NIU got told me b4 one of them quit hard for me
It's true! that subject is my enemy...
Headmaster advised me to retake that subject i failed...

兔年的开始

除开前一封写的
距离上一封已有一个月了

在这之间太多事情发生了
多得我懒得写
多得我不想写

中间有
欢乐
绝望
悲哀
兴奋
生气


新年前
每天下课后都忙着烘培饼干
妈妈说不够
不够她送年
所以我就每天每天烘

就在第二个星期
爸爸突然接到曾祖母逝世的消息
虽然大家都有心理准备了
但没想到会曾祖母那么早去西游
不和我们一起过完年再去

不足三天的葬礼
让我感到窝心
十八年多来没有的亲情
一直以来我所期盼的亲近
期望公公婆婆的真心含蓄

虽然那几天我没得到我想要的
但已经很满足了
有过一顿大家在一起的团圆饭
因外曾祖母我们这一家才会
这么齐全的出席一起

很想和他们谈心
但十几年的长期淡情
使我一时很难敞开和他们聊开


除夕夜
帮妈妈准备团圆饭的菜肴
包水饺是我全权负责的 ^^
妈妈没邀请很多人
只有二姨一家人和姐姐的男朋友

再来就接财神咯
帮忙摆设蔬果
再来上香......
观赏五彩缤纷的烟花


至今已经大年初六了
明天就开课了
还有许多事情要帮忙爸妈
折金子啦...
年初九要的
妈妈比较忙
还要制包子和发糕
不知道妈妈忙得过来吗？

被欠工资

除夕夜
遇见同事兼朋友
谈话中得知工资已发布
所有同事都已经领到了
包括兼职的

一直没接到通知我去领取工资的电话
所以在大年初四还没进入午时就拨电话
问经理有关我的工资可以何时领取

会选择在那天拨电话
因为要去公公婆婆的家
想说过后可顺道去领
万万没想到的是

不负责任的经理
竟说她不知把我的时间表放到哪儿了
还问我为何没去上班
很好的问题！

一个月前
我已经通知她我要辞职
但她竟请我朋友来劝说
最终我答应只工作到一月

现在她竟然忘记?!

再来她竟说
我的工资要等到月底
还说office 没开要等

office 没开的话
也没有必要等到月底吧!?
有必要拖到月底吗？

放下 · 绝望

今早睡迟了
中午12 点上班
但十点才起床
深怕赶不及

虽离家不远也不近
只需约二十分钟车程
但没车也不会驾车的我
要塔巴士去到Sunway 那
有巴士时只需约七十五分钟到达
没巴士时可缠了不知要等到何时

但我今天很幸运哦！
准时到达店里 ^^

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休息时间办完姐姐要我帮她做的事之前
遇到了类似销售员
向我推介兼职工作-金融行销
我还蛮有兴趣的
由于赶时间就互相交换电话号码了

接着赶紧到Asia Avenue去
突然想吃台湾小吃卤汁饭
没想到竟遇见我的'好'邻居叻！
真是冤家路窄.....

同时我也遇见中学同学-LiTing哦！
很高兴能遇见她
因为我好久没见到她了
超过一年了~~~

×再回到台湾小吃×
更没想到他们（邻居）也去吃台湾小吃
遇见他们让我惊惶又惊喜
结果就...
点错套餐了...

但在这三件事发生前
我看见了之前的‘好老板’
或许是看到他
才会发生这么‘幸运’ 的事吧...
不知要伤心还是要哈哈大笑

'短短的三十分钟内竟然能发生这么多事情'
以上这句话是我的直属上司跟我说的叻

不知为何休息时间后
我心情变得很好
是遇见同学的关系
还是邻居呢？
或是吃饱了
哈哈哈哈哈哈哈～～～

总之我今天好开心哦！！！


到了今天的重点了
‘放下’
为何我遇见邻居会紧张？
怕他们吗？怕他们还会像之前出口骂人吗？
见识过他们骂人的样子
那时他们骂人的样子
真的真的有吓到我了
现在心情都还没平复呢！

我必须放下对他们的
仇恨，害怕... ...
虽然不知道恨不恨他们
但也许有
所以要放下看开点
世界才会辽阔许多
现在好想在我邻居前
哈哈大笑给他们看

哈哈哈哈哈～～～

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至于‘绝望’
是因为最近同学们
都在追着阅读一本小说《鬼眼新娘》
当我查到它不止是网络小说
而且还有出书籍时
兴奋得恨不得马上去买了它

放工后去Popular问了
结果是... ...
已销售完了
又不能订购....................
伤心绝望了

好书不许要拥有
也可以收藏在脑里的深海
也可以

模糊

最近买了副浅褐色的隐形眼镜
不知为何戴上后五尺以外视线
是模糊不清的
让我有种不安感


早晨八点就到达Subang 了
再塔巴士到Sunway

到了之后就
找了椅子坐下
阅读书籍... ...
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不争气的胃在吵闹
决定去HOT WOK

好现实哦～～～
年一过所有就东西
都涨价了...
虽涨得不多
但还是涨了

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下午两点
Working
原本是辞了这份兼职的...

今天让我有种遗憾
它让我觉得我在
浪费光阴时间和精神
去到那里做工

首先是顾客被抢
让我觉得那里人手足够
不需要我的存在

再来是新货
新货为何不能在货到当天处理好
非要周日才整理呢？？！！


这些事情是我不要继续做的理由
还是我不要做的原因？？？
无解.........


真的‘累’ 了！

失望的开始

新的一年
新的开始

您们给我的
却是心粹
的感觉

请您不要轻易的激怒

您的压力
请不要化成对我们的怒骂
不要再说些您自己也无法定位的我们的未来
请不要自以为您自己很伟大

也不要
要求我们做些我们不知道的事
而你却都会做
做错了又责怪我
不然就请您说清楚

不要再伤我的心了
我没你想像的遭

我不是万能的！



是您不要了解我们
不是我们不让您了解我们

每当我提出问题
是要求您们的意见
我不是要您们的沉默
彷徨无助的我非常需要您们的意见
不要拒绝我...

您不知道的事
是您自己选择忽略的事
不要最终才发怒说您不知道
当我有疑问您不回答
到后来才说我没问

一次又一次的原谅您们
因为您们是‘您’
我没理由遗忘您们......

您对我们的失望有多少
与我们对您的失望就多少

不要忘了您当时说过的气话
本来不可能发生的
听了之后
也许会激发我那样做
那时你就别后悔了...
一开始没想过离开您们
但听了您的气话以后
有了这样的打算



在这世间扮演着像您们这个角色的人都这样的吗？
我们大家都需要检讨自己
扮演好各自的角色